Bukan apa2! Haha

Hello..

Ini cuma curahan hati, gak usah dibaca ya malu ^,^

Gak tau kenapa tiba2 saya pengen posting. Sebenernya masih bete sama ini blog gara2 waktu ini postingan saya gagal karena internetnya eror! Padahal udah ngetik sepanjang2, kesimpen di draft aja gak! Gimana ga kesel coba hiiih


Ehem.. Saya mau mengungkapkan apa yg ada dlm hati saya.. Hehehehe ^,^ it feels so good to be loved by someone. Yaaaap.. I'm talkin about my bf :">

Hahaha bakalan panjang banget ceritanya kalo ngomongin kisah ini dari awal. Skenarionya sangat puanjaaaaaaang, dan saling berhubungan. Saya merasa agak aneh juga, betapa hal2 yang awalnya rumit, gak karuan, penuh problem, ternyata saling connected dan membuat suatu conclusion yang, well.. menyenangkan?

Seakan2 sudah takdir..

Hahahahahahahahaha.

Dibilang seneng, yaiya seneng. Dibilang cinta banget, gak juga sih, toh masih remaja. Dibilang beruntung, yaiya banget. Dibilang rugi... Nggak kok. Hehe.

Sebenernya saya udah janji sama diri saya sendiri buat gak buang2 waktu buat laki2 yang belum tentu worth it. Saya juga males sih.. Udah kelas 3SMA, mau ujian, mau kelulusan, mau masuk perguruan tinggi.. Buat apa gitu ya logikanya, pacaran, cinta2an, kalo nantinya bakalan putus juga.. Namanya menyia2kan waktu.. I'm too young for serious relationship, but too old for some kind of silly kid relationship like what I did yesterday.. So immature. Ga logis, dan bodoh!

Bilang aja saya traumatis! Memang iya sih tapi yasudahlah.. Awalnya juga saya gamau berhubungan yg gmana2 sama dia, tapiiii dipikir2 dia orang yg luar biasa baik dan perhatian sekali.. Peduli, selalu berada di samping saya tiap saya butuh.. dan dia bilang dia sayang sama saya ^,^ so how could i say NO back then?

So far saya seneng2 aja dgn hubungan ini. Toh selama ini berdampak positif2 aja buat saya, dan gak bisa dipungkiri dia banyak membantu saya. Banyaaaaaaaaak sekali. Dia juga bawa perubahan yg sangat positif buat saya.

Kayaaaaaa... Yaa skarang saya bisa berjilbab di skolah, dan bs lebih jaga kelakuan saya. Sdikit banyak dia lho yg bikin saya bikin keputusan begini.. Lalu menyarankan saya agar lebih mature stiap ngadepin masalah. Kalo saya berbuat bodoh dgn atau tanpa sadar, dia pasti negur.. Padahal dulu2 itu blm pacaran..


Anehnya dia slalu mikir dia ga cukup baik buat saya. Takutnya saya ga bener2 suka sama dia dan cuma mw nyenengin dia aja..

Hell whaaaat? Harusnya saya 100% yg mikir gitu. Duh, saya ini gada apa2nya dibanding dia.. Baik, ya jelas baikan dia lah.. Orng terbaik sedunia mnurut saya, haha. Pinter.. Ya pinteran dia juga lah, apa2 aja bisa. Soleh, dia bangetttttt.. Sangat religius tp juga realistis. Sdangkan saya? Apa coba saya? Ga ada apa2nya.. Satu2nya keistimewaan saya adalah.. Dia sayang sama saya, hahahaha.

Dia bilang dia gaptek.. Haaaaa emang saya canggih apaaa.. Dia mikir dia ga gaul.. Emangnya saya gaul? Geek begini..

What a pleasure, a super good guy (lahir batin, dunia akhirat) like him, loves me the way I am and nevermind about my past and everything that surround us :)


nah bf, mudah2an langgeng2 aje yeee hubungan kite... Jgn bermasalah! Hindari masalah! Selesaikan masalah! Mudah2an aweeeeeet :) sampe kuliah juga :"> hihi
♥QC

Dear Eye..

well, hello everyone..

sudah berminggu2 smenjak postingan terakhir saya. and yaaa, there are a lot of things that happened to me.

akan saya mulai dari kejadian paling.. if I could say it bad..

I am sick. bukan sakit flu atau pusing2 yg gmana2, but my eye is totally sick. penyebab awalnya gak diketahui. pd awalnya mata saya merah biasa, mungkin gara2 softlens, tp udah saya lepas itu lensa kontak.. hari kedua, sakitnya tmbh parah. malah ada bintik warna kuning/putih gitu di pupilnya. saya takut deh brgkali itu apa2. saya inget wkt kelas 2 belajar tntang alat indera, jg belajar ttg mata.. saya cari2 deh buku kelas 2, tp trnyata ga ada. siaaaal..

apalagi hari itu saya harus ke sekolah, ada remedial kimia.. well, dgn menahan sakit yg teramat sangat di mata saya, saya pun ke sekolah. kemudian mngerjakan soal remedial dgn (mudah2an) baik.. tp mata saya udah ga kuat lg. apalg cuacanya panas, matahari bersinar terik, abis selesai urusan di skolah, langsunglaah saya pulang dan tepar..

niat mau ke dokter hari itu juga, tp hari itu adalah hari sabtu dan ga ada satu pun dokter yg buka. well, I can't opened my right-eye at all, dan saya merasa sngt tersiksa.. terpaksa menunggu sampe hari senin buat ke dokter.

saya bedrest dari hari sabtu sampe senin pagi. bedrestnya bener2 bedrest, karna saya ga bangun sdikit pun dr tmpat tdur kcuali ke kamer mandi..

ahirnya hari senin saya dbw ke dokter. kata dokter mata saya infeksi. pnyebabnyaaa gtw pasti. smentara itu bintik kuning yg awalnya saya liat itu udah penuh menutupi pupil saya sampe2 walopun mata kanan saya buka, saya gbs liat apapun selain warna putih. bener2 bikin panik.

ahirnya dikasi obat tetes mata sama dokternya. 2 buah. dan harus ditetesin tiap 2 jam sekali.

beberapa hari berlalu tanpa mmberikan perubahan yg berarti. minggu depannya saya ke dokter lg.. kali ini kata dokter, mata saya digigit serangga.. dibiarkan trus jd infeksi. katanya obat kemarin buat ngobatin infeksinya, tp buat pnyembuhannya obatnya lain lagi. wah apa aja deh.. saya udah pasrah, yg penting saya pengen sembuh..

alhamdulillah bbrapa hari kemudian mata saya udah nunjukin tanda2 kesembuhan.. skrng juga, udah bisa ngliat, walopun mata kanan saya ngeliatnya masi ngeblur gitu. tp gini aja udah alhamdulillah bgt..

the lesson is.. sayangin deh segala yg kita punya, yg dikasi Allah, jaga dan rawat baik2.. krn smuanya itu anugrah dan kalau kita kehilangan satuuu aja, pasti kita akan menyesal. yaaah.. mata oh mata..


♥QC

My Brain Screamed "I'M STRESSED!!!"

Hello folks,

How's the life goin?

I've been stressed for these day, I can say it caused by this TryOut thing. It's so confusing because, I can say that I don't get any preparation for any subject for the test. No wonder if the grade is awful later. I know it's just my fault, I'll do better next time...

So, TryOut is over, it doesn't mean my stress caused come to an end. Next week will be held the Final Exam for this semester. Am I ready for the test itself? I hope I could say Yes, but honestly, NO NO NO.

Maybe I'm too lazy (or too stupid???) to learn these subjects, or maybe I think I'm good enough for everything... Idk, I don't even have an energy to think. Such a fool of myself.

OK, just wish me luck for the next test. Hope there will be such an emergency help for me in the crissist time, hehe just in case if I don't have any idea to do the test.

And of course, I have to believe in myself.

Keep the good work!

Mucho, ♥QC

This Geek is Talked About LOVE

Hei guys, I feel like fall in love these days. Everyday, every minute, even in every second I always think about HIM. I just can't tell who the way he is because oh so many reason. I absolutely can't get enough of it, this feeling sometimes make me crazyyyyy...


Too bad I can't show you the name. It's a little bit dangerous... Haha I'm totally serious. Such kind of 'forbidden love'... when you fall in love with a boy, but he loves someone else, or he already have someone? Idk... but the feeling goes just like that. You can't control the situation around, like you can't control the feeling called LOVE. Sometimes it hurt that much, when you swa he was with another girl. You wanna scream loudly and crying overnight, blaming everything that can be blamed. But what's the point then?


When you desperately in love with someone, it doesn't mean you have to take a part of it. It doesn't mean you have to owe him if he don't want to... You don't have to get together in some kind of relationSHIT thing if the situation said NO...



There's nothing that we could do. Being the 3rd person in their relationship? No, God.. It's a big no.


Hoping they broke up fast? No... Idk, that's just so mean.



Haaaaah.... too much bullshit if we talked about love. Friends would always be friends, there's no way that friends will get in some kind of serious relationship called LOVE. But... I really hope so :))


♥QC

JB - One Time

One Time

Songwriters: Bunton, James; Cole, Corron Ty Kee; Nkhereanye, Thabiso; Stewart, Christopher;


Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
One time, one time

When I met you girl my heart went knock knock
Now them butterflies in my stomach won't stop stop
And even though it's a struggle love is all we got
And we gon' keep keep climbing to the mountain top

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart

And girl you're my one love, my one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl
Always making time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

You look so deep, you know that it humbles me
You're by my side, them troubles them not trouble me
Many have called but the chosen is you
Whatever you want shawty I'll give it to you

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart

And girl you're my one love, my one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl
Always making time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

Shawty right there
She's got everything I need
And I'ma tell her one time
Give you everything you need down to my last dime

She makes me happy
I know where I'll be
Right by your side
'Cause she is the one

And girl you're my one love, my one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl
Always making time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
One time, one time

No-Thing

halo....

ini cuma quickpost aja hihi, it's been a loooooooooooong time since my last post. iya tau saya terlalu malas mengepost. kebanyakan sih saya tweeting, tapi isinya gak ada yg penting juga.


banyak hal yang sudah terjadi sama saya, baik itu pemikiran saya, hal-hal yang udah saya alami, maupun kegelisahan dan hal-hal semacam itu kebanyakan cuma saya pendam di otak, tarik selimut, dan tidur. dan tralala besoknya saya sudah merasa kuat dan menganggap hal-hal seperti itu cuma mimpi-mimpi buruk saja.


itulah yang bikin saya gak gampang stress sekarang.


i've found the way supaya gak stress mikirin ini itu. hah, pelajaran, keluarga, teman-teman... kadang2 suka buat saya mikir panjang,

"SAYA GAK CUKUP BAIK BUAT HIDUP. MAU JADI APA SAYA NANTI?"

membingungkan.

cukup bikin stress juga. cara untuk menyiasatinya? gampang. ke video ezy, sewa beberapa film komedi atau petualangan, bisa juga ke PGC beli dvd-dvd jabakan terbaru, (ha-ha) kemudian hanyut dalam film itu. disarankan untuk menonton film sedih, atau horor. karena setelah menontn film itu, kita akan merasa bersyukur tidak mengalami hal yang terjadi di film dan menganggap hidup kita ini realitas yang jauh lebih indah daripada yang ditayangkan dalam film. stress dan hal gak penting lainnya dengan suksesnya langsung menguap.

yeah!


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udah deh, ga ngerti nulis apaan. yah itung2 pembukaan menulis blog lagi setelah sekian lama tidak...

OK, get ready for my next post!



byebye
♥QC

Posted Related to: Nothing

people, sorry for late posting. i've got some... laziness? i don't know, but i just not in mood for writing anyway.


it's too weird., cause i really love writing. but lately i can't stop do all those stupid things on Facebook and Twitter.


and oh, it's too bad that i'm really addicted to Twitter.


this 'microblogging' thing makes me don't want to do anything except write and refresh my homepage again and again. it's really addictive, and it isn't healthy anyway.


the thing i like the most about tweeting is... i can see the updates from people i follow. i mean, famous people of course. so interesting to know what they think, they do, and they love. they have a very interesting life, even i already have mine too.


ah ya, i found that there's some people are in love with their Tweet friends. it's kinda weird for me. how can we fall in love with someone without knowing each other in real conversation? how can we know that she/he's the real she/he? how if they're just pretending to be someone? how if they're gay or something in the real life? how can we know it all if we're just know them instantly? well, i'll never do those silly thing. better be alone, i guess. because have someone is not a guarantee that you're a good person to be loved! (own quote, hehe)


actually there's so many things i want to share here, but i'm too lazy to think. to find the right words.. phrases.. or anything. this just quick post. better than not yeah, hehehe.


so i think i'll write again tonight, only if i'm in a good mood for doing that.


see ya!
♥QC